because that is how it is nowadays

I keep doing things wrong, I have the wrong motives for doing things. I don't believe anything I am told. So I figure I will help someone instead of listening to the nagging in my head. I try to help my husband get his youtube account set up on the xbox. He has a link on his phone to the email address to sign in only he couldn't remember the password. I was fairly certain I knew it so I grabbed his phone, didn't go through it except to pull up the text and get to the website. I try and try and do the text prompts and email prompts and what happens???? I fucking lock up his account!!! GOD DAMNIT! Of course. So now I look like I was creeping and got busted which wasn't what I was doing and wasn't my intention. I was only going to sign in write down his password and put it in his desk like all the others so he had it :*( how am I going to prove that??? I can't. I feel horrible, I don't want to tell him but it's the right thing to do. I sent a message in and I pulled up the phone number so he can call them and try to get his account back in order but it doesn't feel like enough. It feels like I screwed up so bad and he is going to be so mad at me. Why I don't know but he will. He can only take so much and I have been so crazy lately. I tried so hard to be good tonight and help instead of hinder like all the other times and look what happened. The only thing I did right was I did manage to get the youtube account on his xbox. I just feel so defeated though. I don't know what to do.